My Point of Heu
I always try to be upbeat and positive... but I feel like it is time to get real.
I've been feeling down lately. My angst is coming from this new society we live in today that is divided more than ever and i also feel like people in general have become so selfish and flakier than ever. Covid gave everyone an excuse to cancel, opt to stay home and become way more awkward than they've ever been. It also brought people together, folks having their little gatherings and small groups. But unfortunately for me right at the start of covid we moved out of town and 20 minutes away -- which for most people is "so far." Too far to be invited I suppose.
I know others have felt it too, not being included and not a part -- I noticed for several years now that if I am not the friend reaching out and trying to make plans then I would never see anyone, cause no one really makes plans with me. Maybe it is just a result of my own doing, because folks assume that I am "so busy," that they don't even bother. But lately it has been wearing on me and I felt like being real for once.
I guess I will just continue to ask and ask and seek the friends who are mutual and also take the time to reach out and invite me to things -- as I do them.
Another thing that isn't sitting well with me is business owners who contact me, take my time, ask me for a proposal and then nothing. Not even a reply or they leave me hanging. I don't know if my prices are too high or if I am not the right fit, but time and time again I feel like they are desperate for me to help them and "need" to hire me then they fall off the planet never to be heard from again.
The good aspect of this is it has inspired me to raise my prices even more and work on the format of my proposal to be more clear and perhaps a tad more refined in appearance. Why charge more? I realize my time is valuable and if they aren't able to acknowledge my worth then they are not worth my time. I am just being real.